Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Totally Lost!!

lolz i`m such a long time din blogging, it`s seems great.... Actually i hate tis blog, everytime wen i`m emo, unhappy, sad and have -ve thinking i would like to write it out at here. I don noe is how many times i wrote on tis blog ad lolz upset!!!

Alot of question i would like to ask back myself, Why i`m lost? What things i`m losing? When i noe i`m lost? What in my mind now?

Sometimes i would like to ask izzit every human once they grow up, they will face a lot of troubles? unhappiness n many many more or only me the 1 who face more than other ppl face? I admit that i fail to use "The Secret" = LOA because i really noe i cant focus well on wat i wan n wat i do not wan....
The more i try to use, the more i feel pik chik, because many of them understand n noe how to apply it but for me, is just a shame only, i DON NOE TO APPLY IT!!!

Every1 is keep upgrading, i can c it myself n feel it as well. I`m feel happy n proud of them because i noe all my fren 1 day will success but somehow some1 is upgrading sure some1 is downgrading, i`m feeling tat ME the 1 who downgrading kau kau!!!

I cant really c my future now, compare wit last time, i noe wat i have to do to achieve tis n tat but now totally lost till don noe wat i have to do to to find the next step! Sometimes i was thinking tat izzit i done sth wrongly? izzit i set the wrong goal till i`m lost? I really need some1 can guide me back to my previous mission n vision to achieve my goal!

I don noe wat i`m gonna b in 10 years ahead if i continue like tat! I`ve to change start from now!
I just wanna b success in future no matter how ppl look at me now, no matter how poor i` now, no matter how lost i`m now wat i wan jus b a success n being respect by others! orite!! Have to find back my self now!!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

LOA really works and exists!!!

What is LOA? LOA actually is a very powerful things n it really exist in our daily life. LOA is ntg for those who don noe apply it in ur daily life, normally i`ll use it but recently i really focusing on the wrong this ad. i focus on wat it really happen, i swear!!! What make me trust that LOA exist is today i being teach n taught by a taxi driver about tis. That time i was stunt there don noe what should i ans him, wat he say n wat i learn is almost the same. What i`m curious is a taxi driver also noe such secret n noe how to apply but for me, is a failure cos i apply wrongly haiz.... I`m not trying to look down to a taxi driver but i jus get shock he noe such secret somemore malay er. It started once i get into the car;

T: apa khabar lu? ada baik r?
me: susah la bang! belajar susah, kerja susah, apa pun susah huh...(hope can get discount later )
T: sy ajar lu 1 benda! u mau dengar tak?
me: o blh blh (i tot fren wit him can get cheaper heheheh)
T: u asyik ingat dan cakap susah, hidup u mesti susah la. Apasal u mau fikir susah???
me: was stunt there *eyes blink blink*
T: kawan cina sy beritau i ini, u kena fikir baik, u kena fikir apa lu mau baru blh. Saya taip2 hari pikir mau kasi isteri dan anak makan, cukup duit guna, itu saja wa pikir. Itulah berlaku apa yg sy pikir semua jadi kenyataan. Itulah orang muda jangan asyik pikir susah, banyak orang susah dari kau. Faham ke?
me: my heart was thinking no wonder la (u c wat he think n wat he working now?)

That time i was thinking, we need to apply it correctly if not i think is useless. Even a taxi driver can say tis things means it really exist only will ppl apply it, for sure he also not a normal malay heheheh....btw is me who use LOA wrongly at 1st now i have to think back wat i really need, wat i wanna do it further years n wat i wan me to b in the future. What i wan now is Think, Believe and Act. LOA LOA LOA LOA LOA yeah........

Monday, June 14, 2010

Wishes Wishes!!!

Since long time I din wrote on my blog, because tis few days I was freaking busy in my life, but somehow yes9 I have chance to rest and I watch a drama, on9-ing enjoy with the food and drinks, I was like wau wau!!! i`ve been long time din enjoy such relax life ever haha. I was so ‘hang fok’ and happy la lolz.

Suddenly I saw my fren bday celebration pic, so I view it 1 by 1. After no longer I was thinking that my fren wishes come true on this year. He wishes that he could celebrate with his special one (SHE) since 2 years ago but already fail to do so because of some internal problem. This year he din ever plan to do his celebration but SHE organize it and run it till end of the party lolz he was so lucky, I was so envy with him because at last his dream come true!!!

That time I was thinking and ask myself do I have any wishes that haven come true, this make me feel sad. I still rmb last 2 years that is on my 20th bday I wish to have a watch but so sad some1 promise to present the watch to me dint present it to me because due to some prob exists between us, till on my 21st celebration I told directly wat I wan to her, but she say “is too expensive”, then I say “is ok la, this year nonit buy anything for me, u jus accumulate the money and buy it for me next year of my bday,” she agree to do like what I suggest but now I don think I could have it anymore lolz…

My 22nd bday is coming on this sept, this year I wish to own an ESPRIT Sun glass, I wont request from any1 to present it to me because i`ll buy it for my own. As I know I wont make myself get ntg tis year so I wan my dream come true as well, i`ll make my bday wish come true tis year… I got the urhmmmm ad….Gambahteh!!!

My future sun glass!!! Any other choices???hahaha

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I`m lost before exam!!!!

hi is time for me to blog again, i really don noe wer to start. should i start from the day i lost? should i start wen i noe i`m lost? o whould i start from wer i lost?
Thousand of question i wanna to ask but who is the right person should i ask?

Last weekend while i stood in front the television suddenly i think of y i`m sitting there while on tuesday i got an exam is goin on, every1 study like shit, burning midnite oil but i still slamba sitting n watching tv, i start to worry ad but i still din study lolz wat happen to me recently??? no mood study at all, no mood talking, huh is a very serious prob i noe. Any suggestion can help?

huh tat time i noe i was lost, i totally don noe wat should i do, my plan all ruin, although wat i plan but i din follow my plan to go. is tis call failure? i stay for useless until my exam on tuesday. i got entrepreneur exam, 100 questions within 2 hours, but i only use 15mis to c through the question, i totally don noe how to ans it. That time i tot i was over tension then i try 2 cool down n start to do again but still the same. I regret i din study properly but ad too late although tis is a mid exam but i wont accept tis excuse for my self, i jus will blame tat i`m not taking serious at tis 3rd sem at all, i promise i wont enter exam hall if i din study properly i swear to myself 'SWEAR'. Sorry to my parents, n family n frens!!!

i`m not goin to continue anymore although i got a long long story wit me but i think i have to stay positive start from now, i have to start action now!!!go go go

Friday, June 4, 2010

Morning uum!!!

Good Morning world, today i woke so early and the weather was so so cold wish to have tis kind of weather everyday lolz.... What is in my mind early in the morning, fuh such alot lo, planning to study, plan my part time how too earn more, sth SECRET hahaha... Study n work no worries for me la so far cos i got 'ah chan tong' and i LOA to it muakakak....

Bout the secret things, huh don noe cos ler yes9 i was thinking bout it ad and i ask 1 of my BF`s, he told me to think my self i was like lol if i can think i nonit ask u la lolz...at last i din make any decision cos i fall asleep ad, till jus now i on my FB i saw sth only i feel tat the world really changing ad not like last time, every1 grow up, grow better and learn more. Tis is wat i always hope to happen on it at last i saw it happen, i was so happy u noe, but on the same time i feel like lost at the moment don noe y haiz...

ok la think i need to LOA awhile to get my uum back lolz...hpe it wont spoil my nice mood for today...i love the moment once we wake hahaha enjoy the day ya!!!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Planing Japan Trip!!

lolz tis few days i`ll very busy man, start from 2molo my schedule will be very very pack even go makan, toilet n sleep will limited time fuh....

Why i so busy? => because i`m helping to organize a trip to Japan 9days 8nights on 21nov till 30 nov.

What i busying? =>i have to check the ticket price and deal with the MAS n Japan airlines (i learn alot haha)
within tis few month we have to find and decide some activity related with Japan, is to prepare our self before goin there and to make us have some Japan feel as well before going muakakak.

Once talk about Japan it make me so excited lol....we plan to go alot of places but the final place we will only decide on coming week lol beh tahan ad hahaha
i got lots stuff to buy from there especially electronic things lolz...
busy and excited n tiring fuh don noe how to express my feel er lol

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

mou lui scout camp!!!


Yeah i`m back to my scouting life…. Is me la with uniform since 2007 if I not mistaken hahah realy long time ago lo lol!!!

Yao Yeng ler!!!heheh











Although i`m very excited go for camping but I was very very disappointed with tis scout camp.


U c my disappointed face u can feel it ad!!! I`m desperate going back home lol







A fresh grad KING SCOUT dare to teach 3 King Scout build a Pintu Gerbang lol, such a chi yok for us tis camp!




4 of them build a pelantar for 4hours also cant settle, lol is tis call king scout?? Sia sui only lol









We are ~pei shi~ the fresh grad king scout! Lol if I were him I dare not 2 wear the rambu ad lol sia sui!


He got many name, we call him joker, circus, cat, bull, pig, goat and many more u noe y? muakakka







Tis were all of us, huh many rite? Can u c me???? muakakka


U noe how boring the camp is?we manage to,

sleep at noon,

chit chat at nite,

go out for dinner,

ponteng istiadat pagi,

ponteng senaman pagi,

walk here n walk there,

1 day can bath more than 3 times

lol if u were scout b4,i wanna ask u got so free mer a camp? have u ever go a camp like tis i was jus like pay for my cert, n go for holiday lol, so sein tis camp lol